To Naini Lloyd, grandmother. From anonymous.


Dear Naini,

It has been a number of years since you left us, and while you were here we never discussed my sexuality. This is a shame, but in all honesty at the time wasn’t ready to talk to you about this issue, and there didn’t seem to be a need to explain anything, as I wasn’t seeing anyone whose impact in my life required explanation. However, equally, you put no pressure on me regarding the fact that I was so resolutely single for such a long time, never enquiring whether I had a girlfriend or asking any probing questions. I could have interpreted this as lack of interest in my life, or fear of addressing the issue, but I like to think that, as you knew me so well, and you had been on this earth such a long time, you didn’t want to put any pressure on me but understood that this was my situation. In your silence, you supported me, or at least I felt your acceptance and support. I appreciated this and I hope that when the time came when I was ready to tell you my intuition about you would be proved right, I am sad about the fact you and I never discussed this, but I didn’t feel it would have necessarily been an easy conversation. Thank you for always making me feel welcome and loved.

Your grandchild,


About Naini Lloyd


Received March 12, 2016.
Published June 21, 2016.